I swear on my life.

If anybody reads this...im seriously going freakin insane. My step-dad has crossed his limits and im ready to kill. Im really not joking and i know people barely come on here anymore but i thought it would be all too appropriate to post this in the asylums.I hope they get a divorse..A.S.A.P! I know that would mean that id move but id be all for it at this point. Im done with CPS and Jackass and his fam and all the fucking people who always know how to fuck up everything. I just hope to god that im not killed in my fucking sleep by this psycho! ...thats just what i think when i see him. Hes a drunken idiot and i cant help but wanna rip his god damn throat off.

oh my god, what happened

ditto, what's wrong? did u tell the CPS anything?

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hell no.
im not gonna get my mom hurt for his dumbass.
I cant really say much now about the subject..but im probably moving sometime.
only God knows. But it seems no matter how much i pray no good will come to it. Maybe im doing it all wrong, or i just dont deserve God's mercy but im really sick of always being on edge and living in fear of someone that has pretty much all authority over me. In an instant i could be on the streets if he really wanted me to. I just really am tired of feeling like i wanna give up cuz life should be a gift not a burden. I just know all you guys think im a complete drama queen but this is really what its like. I know im a kill-joy but...

Oh Emily! =[
Ill try to do whatever i can to keep u away from him.
that means going to the mall or having sleepovers or just doing anything!
i luv u Emily and will never forget u!
ur an amazing person and u and ur mom deserve way better than that jerk!
ill pray for u everyday!
just keep the faith and he will help u!
every sunday u need to come to church with us.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH EMILY!!!!

ok..im kinda crying now.
but thank you so much kels. I just need you guys alot right now and i dont wanna seem needy but im just so...well..im just feeling kinda dead(figuratively speaking)right now. you know on the edge of breaking but i dont wanna so im just gonna act numb and somewhat cocky to make him think he doesnt affect me. I know he probably hears me in my room but i wont let him see it. Im really truly done with him..completely. He thought he could come in my room and apologize, try to persuade me, but i just was a well..umm..bitch to him and he didnt get what he wanted. Damn manipulator. Hes not gettin me this time for damn sure.

omg Em! Im soooo soryy that like seriously is just so...gayy! i mean urgh i want to like do something! If you need anything just tell us. ok? that just sux that is so worse then my situation last few weeks

hahaha
mmkay jess.=]]
im so frikkin glad i have you guys.
youre the only motive i have to get up in the morning.
no joke.

me as well!

I love you guys! emily jess bryan kelsey

Evie wrote:

ok..im kinda crying now.
but thank you so much kels. I just need you guys alot right now and i dont wanna seem needy but im just so...well..im just feeling kinda dead(figuratively speaking)right now. you know on the edge of breaking but i dont wanna so im just gonna act numb and somewhat cocky to make him think he doesnt affect me. I know he probably hears me in my room but i wont let him see it. Im really truly done with him..completely. He thought he could come in my room and apologize, try to persuade me, but i just was a well..umm..bitch to him and he didnt get what he wanted. Damn manipulator. Hes not gettin me this time for damn sure.

I was crying when i was posting that.
I just dont wanna see u get hurt.
and i dont want u to be taken away from me.
I love u so much Emily!

do you want me to start crying again?
hahaha
i love you all as well.
really, you guys ARE my life.

I luv u em!

I love you too kelsey.=]

emily, you need to stand your ground. remind that son of a bitch that he's your father, not your enemy. remind him that you're a young woman. not a child. and most of all, you remind him that God is on YOUR side. life doesn't last forever, and i don't think he wants to be remembered as the drunk ass who abused his daughter. if he doesn't turn his life around soon, there's no turning back, and his life in hell will be inevitable. emily, you are an independent being. you have rights. and nobody can take that away. be strong, young solider. fight for your right to life, liberty, and the persuit of happiness. be the difference.

you guys are gonna run my tear ducts dry.
I cannot tell you how much i appreciate your guys support and the dissings on th "DH"(dickhead).
I know these things and it kind of saddens me to see a man that will most deffinitly go to hell if he doesnt completly turn his life around.

so why the hell are MY eyes watery

aww bryan.
i love ya too.=]]

I was cryin too! =[[

I loveness you guys soooo much!

im sorry for making you guys cry.
im such a whore.
BAHAHAHAHAHa

what ever! its ok we loveness you! =]]

*CHEESY SMILE!!*